I Know What I Feel

This is my first post in 2013
and now I do not know what I want to write here

Im a woman with many flaws
and whether I deserve love from someone with genuine?
I dntt know, what i can feel love wit someone else in the pain taht felt before, it still haunts me to this day!
I dont want to disappointed anyone, but why he always wanted to have my heart? 
even though he knows I do not love him

I love him but I do not love
 
And now Ive always judged by the people, that I am an evil and I dntt have a feelings
hey you!  
actually you dont need grandstanding know my heart,actually this is only my heart who knows. 
the people can only guess what's in my heart but they dont know what i feel right now

Thanks for the people who cares to me
but, I know what i feel